Raining bad times.


The thundering weather in Austin sets up a good metaphor for the bullshit that has been happening to me lately. So, as much as I wanted to, the mini-vacay was just not in the cards because of some unforeseen medical bills, so that sucked. On top of that, my phone decided to be an ass and stop working, my hope is that it is just the battery and that I can get it replaced soon. So the consequences of that have been that I have had to put my GymPact on hold, because there has been no way of checking in via RunKeeper or through the GPS. Sucks, I really liked having that accountability. In general, I have been pretty depressed, too. I have to have hope that this is the end of bad things and better things will start happening, but then again it has been a long stretch of bad. 

Weight has been pretty stable at 126-127, but then again I have been eating mostly beans, veggies, and rice (I was able to basically feed two people for like 5 days on $15, crazy huh?) I know like weight loss, life has a way of working out, if you make the right choices, but being stressed out all the times certainly doesn’t create the right environment to make those. I made it 15 days smoke free, and this past Saturday I relented “socially” to indulge in those awful things. The cognitive dissonance doesn’t work on me, I know they are terrible, fatal, and it is not likely that science will help me grow a new lung. Yet, give me a mint julep (my way of celebrating the Kentucky Derby) and a bloody Mary and those concerns just melt away. Pathetic. Stop doing stupid shit, Lauren. Self-destruction isn’t cute anymore. Ugh, can someone cheer me up, please.

 

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6 thoughts on “Raining bad times.

  1. Hi Lauren,
    I just found your post while Pinterest surfing haha and although we don’t know one another, I think I may have something to add to your regime to really cheer you up! You are workout dedicated and have a head for positive change and accountability with health improvement which is awesome – plus you are super witty and I would love to connect. I would love to email you something to check out that point blank rocks and I think you would have interest in – could you send me your. email please? Thanks! Tracy 🙂 tracywagstaff@comcast.net

    • Depends, are you trying to sell me something? No worries if you are, but just saying you might be barking up the wrong tree with me and my financial sich. 🙂

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